Yesterday we went to the carnival...had a great time, which I'll talk about in another entry, but I just want to talk about whats bothering me.
So I was sitting at a picnic table in the middle of everything. There was a pigeon that had been walking around eating food off of the ground. Not bugging anyone when these 3 teenage boys walk by and one of them says something smart and hits the bird with a bat!! The rest of the boys started laughing and saying mean things about the bird. Luckily the bird seemed okay. A man next to me kinda shooed it and it flew off. Now what kind of people do such a thing to a defenseless animal who was minding it's own business. Please, can somebody tell me what is so funny and amusing about abusing animals? I can't even begin to understand.
When I told Nevin about it he was so upset. He couldn't understand why someone would do that. Nevin is a pre-teen and has lots of compassion for animals. What do the parents of these boys teach them? That animals are beneath us, don't matter, or maybe even have no feelings and emotions? Of course parents may have nothing to do with this. It's just so upsetting to me.

Father's Day

Today was a pretty busy, stressful, but fun day!

It started out by going to lunch at Sizzling Sticks Cafe. Kinda like BD's Mongolian BBQ. It was yummy! Then since everything was closed downtown, we decided to go to the book store. We got a Mad Libs for Nevin, a sticker and a Hands Are Not For Hitting book for Kieran(much needed and hoping it helps lol), a pregnancy journal and baby names book. On our way back from the book store Kieran fell asleep so Josh dropped me off at Target while he read a book and eventually fell asleep too(hehe).
Thank goodness, since I hadn't had the chance to get him a Father's Day gift(don't have a car and rarely have money on hand), It worked out great and I think surprised him! I got him a fancy coffee thermos and a little book for him to read to Kieran and Chloe called Daddy Loves Me(we already have a Mommy Loves Me and I've never been able to find the Daddy one!) It's so cute. And of course a card. So there I was in the bathroom stall of Target assembling his gift..hehe.
The boys each made him homemade cards. Very sweet!

On a side note....whats up with Target never having my size in maternity clothes? Jeesh!

Now we are home and having Taco Bell for dinner, though the smell is making me nauseous. Might not be able to eat it!

Cute Little Dress

I bought this over the weekend. I couldn't help myself. It's the cutest little dress, sweater and shoes ever! I can't tell you how happy this makes me!

Universalist Unitarian Church

What a great day we had. We went to a non-denominational church today, though I don't think I'll be calling it church. We met some great people and had a really nice time. It seems like somewhere we'll fit in and will be great for the kids! I'm agnostic as is Josh so it's nice to find a place like this. It's all thanks to my friend Michelle :). After the meeting the kids played on the playground. Later an awesome singer named Joe Reilly put on a family concert. Talk about FUN! This guy is a great performer and really knows how to get kids(and parents) really into it. The kids were so cute dancing and having a great time. Not to mention the guy is not too bad on the eyes ;).
It's really earthy music too. I love that.

Panic Attack

Tonight I had a panic attack like I've never had before. I've always dealt with anxiety and panic attacks, but never ever to this severity. I was at a Blessing way for my friend(had a fabulous time by the way!), but when it came time to read our blessings and it was MY turn I suddenly freaked. I had a poem that was sort of long.
Suddenly I was shaking, sweating, my skin felt like it was on fire, I couldn't catch my breath and felt as if I couldn't breath. I was trying not to cry and my voice was shaky. There was nothing I could to to control it. Three times while reading it I felt the urge to just stop and leave the room. I didn't think I'd make it through. I stopped a few times to take a deep breath and I'm not sure how much people noticed, but it was quite embarrassing. I've always gotten nervous while reading or on the spot in front of large groups. I knew I'd be nervous, but I never imagined this would happen.

Can I Just Run Away?

Sometimes on days like this I'd like to jump in my car, drive to a hotel and stay there for 2 days lol. All by myself. It's just been one of those days. *Deep breath*.