Saturday, August 29, 2009

Friday, August 28, 2009

One of the Hardest Things

Last night while laying in bed Kieran asked me who my Mom is. I told him her name is Rebecca and that she is his Grandma. Then he asked me where she is, said he wanted to go see her and wanted her to come to our house. He's 3 so it was hard trying to explain why we couldn't do those things. I explained to the best of my ability that she isn't here anymore, that she had to go far far away and we can't see her. He kept asking questions so I told him that she died and it's sad...that it means we can't see her. He started getting upset and yelling saying she didn't die and we CAN go see her. Every time he said that I felt my heart break. He doesn't know what death is so he was just frustrated and over tired, but he does know what a Grandma is. He knows other people have Grandma's, knows all about Grandparents from watching Caillou(lol) and knows about Grandma Weber(who is his Great Grandma), but the poor boy doesn't have a Grandma and wants one.
He'll often ask about HIS Grandma while seeing or hearing about someone else's.
It saddens me most that he never met her, and she never even knew he would exist. I wish they could have at least known each other. Same for Chloe. Life can be so unfair. I'm glad Nevin knew her for as long as he did and has memories.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

My Anger Go To Song


Makes me feel better..hehe.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Tired of my belly pics yet?


Tomorrow I will be 32 weeks! Wow...I can't get over how fast this pregnancy is going by!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Belly and Party

Man, I don't know what it is about me being pregnant and not blogging. I just can't seem to find the will to do it! I will think about something I want to blog about, but then never do it. I'm going to try to do better.

So...I'll start with my most recent belly pic. Here I am at 29 weeks(I'm 30 weeks as of Sat).

I can't imagine getting much bigger, but I will!
Chloe is a strong little baby. She even hurts me from time to time while jumping around in there...hehe! I really can't wait to meet her, but 2 months seems so soon. I'm not ready for this pregnancy to be over, then again...ask me again in a month and a half...ha!
Things are going really well. My only complaints are major acid reflux and back pain. Actually, my back hasn't been hurting quite as much as it was before...I hope it stays this way.

Last Saturday(the 8th) was my little boys 3rd birthday!! 3! Can you believe it? My baby is 3. We had his party outside at a park and it was pouring rain and thundering, but eventually stopped raining and the kids were able to play. I'm so thankful that my awesome friends and family didn't cancel due to weather..not one of them! :) Fun was had by all! I was so proud of our cake. Josh baked it(with some help) and I decorated it. This was my 1st attempt and decorating a cake in this fashion. I really like how it turned out! We used the vanilla cupcake recipe from Vegan Cupcakes Take Over the World and just made it into a whole cake. It was so yummy!
Here are some pictures from the party.